hey, look at the sun...

i just wanna write something...

tomorrow i'll be watching a sitti performance with my friends. it's part of a birthday surprise for a friend who's a real fan of sitti. and i just can't wait to see his reaction when the moment of surprise hits him...if we're lucky, i'll see him with sitti on stage.

i myself enjoys sitti's music so dearly cause it relaxes me and keeps me focus in my work. everytime i hear her songs, i couldn't help but sing...her music makes me feel light, it makes me smile.

way back before, i've wanted to bring another friend to watch her. i thought planning the whole thing in advance would make our skeds free that night but up to the last minute, that friend had something else to do. it's work related so there's nothing i can do about it. it was kinda frustrating because he even requested for something that night but in the end would just forget about the plan. it's hard when someone commits to a schedule but isn't decisive enough when the final date arrives. i really wanted to watch sitti perform that night but not alone. i was about to go home then and when i was on my way out, a friend invited me to watch her. i had second thoughts of watching but what the heck, i wouldn't let some plan ruin the night.

and i'm just glad that i made the right decision of watching sitti.
all night long, i was smiling because of her music.

then i told myself... in the future, i'll just invite people who knows what an audio-video lock is. hah!

when the phone rings

it's been a few months and i still have a feeling of loneliness within me. i guess i'm haunted by it and it seems that it won't go away. i just have a strong control of myself that i'm able to get by with my day to day activities. trying to get hooked up with so much work... but at the end of the day, it's still you i think about.

you're near but it seems we're very far from each other. and i'm the one causing the distance. i know you're just a phone call away but i just can't seem to find that phone.

maybe a few years from now, maybe in another lifetime i'll be able to find that one particular phone.

if it rings then, we'll know...

a song for so long

here's a song i've created 11 years back. i can't remember all the lines but the tune of the song i definitely won't forget. i remembered coming up with the lyrics and strumming the guitar one evening. it's a simple song and maybe i could play it one time. here it goes:

didn't know how to tell you so
you made me feel so good before

but then it suddenly changes
you broke my heart into pieces
and left me without a trace

and now that i love you
i have to let you go/set you free

i know it's hard to say goodbye to you
it's time to live my own life too
i know that it will never be the same
now that we've parted
and go on our separate ways

goodbye...


probably a weird song, i don't know. but still it's something i've created and i just wanted to share it. i don't even remember if i ever composed the song for a particular person. it's been so long... i don't know what hit me. i just wanna post it.

a movie review

what to write now? well, i planned of posting another song but then i changed my mind. it's been a few weeks since i've written anything and i just want to write about my day...nah. i don't know where this will lead me.

i've watched the movie "superman returns" last saturday and i enjoyed it. it's not much into action and more into the emotional aspect but i liked it. i really do. i guess i didn't expect anything from it that's why it has a different effect on me.

would i watch it again? i would if my friends have not seen it yet and would like to watch it. alone? no, i've never enjoyed watching a movie in a theater by myself. maybe i'll try it sometime. it can be quite an experience as long as it's not a horror/suspense movie.

right now, i can't wait to see jack sparrow...yup, pirates of the caribbean 2 is next on my list. i enjoy watching johnny depp films and i just love the guy.

come to think of it, it's just now that i get the chance to watch movies in theaters. a little less workaholic nowadays, heh. probably a good thing.

better together

i just want to post this song.

Better Together by Jack Johnson

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?
And how come we're so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

[Chorus:]
MMM its always better when we're together
Look at the stars when we're together
It's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
Just might find there way into my dreams tonight
But I know that theyll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
But tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find there way
Into my day to day scene
I'll be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree

It's always better when we're together
Somewhere in between together
It's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

MMmmmm MMMmmmm Mmmmmm
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is no time,
And there is no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together.

a painful love

i have been affected much by something i have no control of. as much as i wanted things to turn out the way i have pictured it, i guess it's not the right time. when is?

i've always seen myself as a strong person. even in times of difficulties or any problems that i've encountered, you wouldn't see me differently. maybe a bit serious at times but still you wouldn't know that i have a problem. everyone's used to my smiling face and my cheerful moods. i guess i'm good in hiding. good in hiding how i truly feel.

right now all i can think about is the person i've hurt. i never wanted to hurt this person in my entire life but i did, big time. i thought everything would be okay. i thought knowing this person more would make our lives livelier. how could life be this complicated? all i want is to make this person happy. i want to take away all the pain he experienced in his life, make him feel loved, take care of him and all his loved ones and just be there for him. i want to be with him. go to places with him. show him off to the world and let everyone know that he's mine and i'm his...making sure that every moment that we have will be cherished. but all these things has fallen into pieces and i couldn't do anything. i don't want to hide anything from anybody and the result is i have to give him up even if my heart says no.

all my life, i don't fall in love quite easily but when i do, it seems like i have to hurt. It's painful to love but i don't regret ever falling. i hope and pray that one day, everything will change. i hope everything will fit into the right places and everyone can be happy. and if there would be changes in the future, i hope it's for the better. i really hope that we won't lose the friendship even if it comes at a later date. i just hope that one day, he can forgive me.